What I've learned in college is that we are all born no gender but 2 different sexes (biological). We are then socialized by matching a gender (which is a social construct and not even bilogical) to the sex we are born with. It's when we mature sexually that we really learn what gender we are supposed to be. It's unique to the individual and it does not always match up with the "right" sex. When we grow up, some of us realize that we are one or the other gender or both genders. The sex we are born with doesn't have much to do with it as much as socialization does, then maturing sexually brings out the realization of which gender we really are. Sounds like sexual maturity brings out the real gender. Hmmm...makes sense. Could be that there is a socialized gender and a biological gender that shows up in puberty. Still thinking. I like that one best.
So many of us go through life saying that because I have a vagina I have to be feminine, but I don't feel like it. Or because I have a penis I have to be masculine, but I don't feel like it. If I'm a female and attracted to boys, I can't be attracted to girls, too. I just can't. What would my parents and grandparents, one of whom is an elder, say? No, it must not be true because they would not like it.
We were taught that pink and blue rule from birth. "That's not lady like!" "You're a boy. Be tough!" We are all taught that. Interesting how puberty brings out our real genders, even if we have to lie to ourselves and others about it out of fear. I'm bi. I've known since I was 13, but didn't realize it then. I felt so guilty. I have never actually done a bi act. It's all in how I feel. I know what people are going through with this. It can be stressful. I tried to squash the feelings like a good little dub should, and felt guilty when I couldn't get rid of the feelings. Denying who and what you are is a sin, and I don't even believe in sin!
Chenoa